Im going through a lot in life right now.?
Its confused thinking, I would say. The problem is that youre confused about where peace comes from: you think that its about where you live or the conditions matching your preferences. thats not what its about. Being at peace is about who you are, not where you are. Youre taking your dissatisfaction with yourself and projecting it out onto the world as if its the world thats the source of your frustration. The world can certainly get in your way when youre going somewhere. But you have to fundamentally be at home with yourself if you want to be whole anywhere.